He was oppressed and afflicted yet he did not open his mouth, he was led like a lamb to the slaughter, and as a sheep before her shearers is silent, so he did not open his mouth. - Isaiah 53:7
The centurion, seeing what had happened, praised God and said," Surely this was a righteous man." When all the people who had gathered to witness this sight saw what took place, they beat their breasts and went away. But all those who knew him, including the women who had followed him from Galilee, stood at a distance, watching these things. -Luke 23:47-49
I start to discover the beauty of God's Word and how it really becomes my source of strength and wisdom as I journey through my working life. Everyday, new challenges come my way especially in forms of criticisms, negative comments, false statements, gossips that I do not want to hear from yet happen.
When Jesus was led to be crucified and to die on the cross, knowing that He himself did not sin,He did not defend, fight back or flee away from the hands of those who captured him the night before his crucifixion. He said nothing not because he has done anything wrong but he knows what he is doing: to die on the cross, to save his people from eternal death and from the wrath of God. He humbly, consciously being led to the cross, all in all, to obey God and fulfill the wonders of God's grace and love that we will be saved through him. He did not fight back, argue even though he has the power to do so.
The wonder is that the truth will always be revealed at the end of the day; when Jesus died on the cross with the miracles that followed during his hour of death ( the temple curtain was torn into two, earthquakes,darkness covers the day..), soldiers, people who were on that spot knew that they have killed the wrong person...indeed Jesus is the Son of God! The truth is revealed, those who criticised Jesus felt ashamed, guilty of what they have done...some hide, some repent.. Indeed, God knows how to protect those whom he has chosen, not only Jesus, but His children on earth...
God's wisdom is what I need to face my daily challenges. I can choose to fight back when I hear what is unbeneficial to me, I can choose to be angry, I can choose to be ignorant and be stubborn. But, I am called to choose to follow God's way. Taking revenge or fighting back, though I may win the argument, may cause broken relationships, hardships, negative impressions and bad testimony. I choose to be like Christ, silent is not always equal to foolish, but to God, in some ways, it is the wisest choice compare to defending and rebuking. It makes my life easier, to see people back-stabbing, gossipping yet not affecting my mood because as long as God knows what I'm doing, as long as I know what I'm doing does not sin against God, I should not be so calculative and hold tightly on it... let God settle the problem, I should focus on the tasks given to me in my workplace.
I rejoice because I find peace and joy in living my daily life with God's Word as my guidance. There are more challenges ahead of me, I should not fear but constantly pray not only for myself but colleagues who help me and also those whom God has put into my life to make my life more challenging...haha... thank God for them as without them, I may not know how great is my God.
Sunday, June 24, 2007
Sunday, June 10, 2007
A forgetful mind
I started working back in Ipoh since 1st June, have gone through 7 working days. I still feel uncertain of my job description but looking forward to see and experience the new challenges that are ahead of me. Sometimes, I may feel pressured with the work I'm doing, handling it carefully, trying to minimize the mistakes that may be unbeneficial to the company and also myself. Maybe I should take things one at a time, slowly develop my confidence in the new phase that I'm entering into.
Sometimes, I just tend to forget why I chose to come back Ipoh to work at the first place. These few days of working in Ipoh brings unsatisfaction in my heart, I didn't really find joy that I experienced at my previous jobs either in KL or Ipoh. I started to examine and question myself, where have things gone wrong? I started to think back on the purpose of me choosing to come back to Ipoh instead of continuing my life in KL after graduate.
My core purpose is to spend more time with family while I'm still available ( in terms of still in single status). These first few days in Ipoh is a test for me. There's not really joy in me as I did start to blame myself on why I come back where KL is full of freedom and entertainment compare to Ipoh. Have I forgotten the calling? Have I forgotten the promises that I've made? Yes, my selfishness of just wanting to fulfill my own desires, to find happiness with the entertainment I once get from KL hinder me, cover my love upon my family. It does not only affect my life but also people around me especially my family members. Once hearing the good news of me coming back to work has now become questions in their mind : Have my little girl made a right choice to come back to work? Is she feeling happy now? Are we, as parents have forced her to come back to work? Will she be happier if she stays in KL in the first place??
I've forgotten the feelings of those who love me... I am too focus on how I feel, thinking of what I might be doing at this moment if I'm in KL. I've neglected my family's feelings on the current situation that I'm facing which will bring them uneasiness also. Is the place that I choose to work so important? Is entertainment so important to me?
I've forgotten the calling of God on earth. Why should I ponder so much on how I feel instead of starting to think of what I can do since I've moved back to Ipoh. Yup, why should I keep wasting my time on unwanted thoughts and leaving the importance of serving God wherever I am, wherever God has put me in.
I pray for his guidance. The joy should come from my inner heart, my soul and my mind. What is God calling me to do here while I'm in the place He has put me in. May he continue to speak to me. My work is not my all, but my soul is what I should be caring of. My joy comes when I start to obey God and do what he wants. God will lead me, he will not leave me alone as what he has promised me and to those whom he loves and those who obey him.
I will wait upon his guidance. One day, when I look back and ponder on the journey of my life, I may see the wonder of his hands that I may not understand now but will be revealed when time comes. Dear Lord, please constantly remind me of your love that you have shown on me that I should feel blessed and joyful rather than pitying myself not knowing the abundant grace and love that you've shown me now and will be showering throughout my life forever.
Sometimes, I just tend to forget why I chose to come back Ipoh to work at the first place. These few days of working in Ipoh brings unsatisfaction in my heart, I didn't really find joy that I experienced at my previous jobs either in KL or Ipoh. I started to examine and question myself, where have things gone wrong? I started to think back on the purpose of me choosing to come back to Ipoh instead of continuing my life in KL after graduate.
My core purpose is to spend more time with family while I'm still available ( in terms of still in single status). These first few days in Ipoh is a test for me. There's not really joy in me as I did start to blame myself on why I come back where KL is full of freedom and entertainment compare to Ipoh. Have I forgotten the calling? Have I forgotten the promises that I've made? Yes, my selfishness of just wanting to fulfill my own desires, to find happiness with the entertainment I once get from KL hinder me, cover my love upon my family. It does not only affect my life but also people around me especially my family members. Once hearing the good news of me coming back to work has now become questions in their mind : Have my little girl made a right choice to come back to work? Is she feeling happy now? Are we, as parents have forced her to come back to work? Will she be happier if she stays in KL in the first place??
I've forgotten the feelings of those who love me... I am too focus on how I feel, thinking of what I might be doing at this moment if I'm in KL. I've neglected my family's feelings on the current situation that I'm facing which will bring them uneasiness also. Is the place that I choose to work so important? Is entertainment so important to me?
I've forgotten the calling of God on earth. Why should I ponder so much on how I feel instead of starting to think of what I can do since I've moved back to Ipoh. Yup, why should I keep wasting my time on unwanted thoughts and leaving the importance of serving God wherever I am, wherever God has put me in.
I pray for his guidance. The joy should come from my inner heart, my soul and my mind. What is God calling me to do here while I'm in the place He has put me in. May he continue to speak to me. My work is not my all, but my soul is what I should be caring of. My joy comes when I start to obey God and do what he wants. God will lead me, he will not leave me alone as what he has promised me and to those whom he loves and those who obey him.
I will wait upon his guidance. One day, when I look back and ponder on the journey of my life, I may see the wonder of his hands that I may not understand now but will be revealed when time comes. Dear Lord, please constantly remind me of your love that you have shown on me that I should feel blessed and joyful rather than pitying myself not knowing the abundant grace and love that you've shown me now and will be showering throughout my life forever.
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